Im in a dark depression today, and I know that most of the good people in the world are feeling the same despair Im feeling now because its so strong and palpable right now.
There is a heavy feeling of sadnesssifting through the air. And there is a hopelessness in the eyes of American women that Ive never seen before.
The closest way to describe it is a feeling of mourning and of loss. Its like a death.
And there was a death last night.
It feels like one of those particularly harrowing deaths, the kind that blow your mind because it couldve been prevented.
It feels likewhen someone dies out of the blue.You cant make sense of it, you cant wrap your brain around it and you dont even want to. It feels disrespectful to the persons memory to try tomake sense of it.
And I will never make sense of Donald Trump being the president of the United States.
With himas our president, the women of this country are suffering an epically huge lossofour integrity and the belief that were safe and that the law is on our side.
Becausenow, our right to be free from objectification or harassmentis gone.
That blanket I always took for granted has been taken away, and Im left bare. That blanket covered me up and made me believe the person in charge will protect me against the bad guys.
However, weve nowbeen stripped raw because our president-elect is the bad guy.
Donald Trump is the enemy I fear the guy walking a little too closely behind me when Im walking home alone in the dark. Hes the guy I felt unsafe to be alone with when I was a kid. Hes the guy who made me feel uncomfortable and objectified duringauditions.
Hes someone whomade me feel like the only value Ive ever had is in the way I look. Hes the guy who stripped me of my self-esteem and stimulated my eating disorderbecause he made fun of women who didnt fit the medias definition of beauty.
Above all, hes the guy who touched a girl without her consent and got away with it. Our president is that guy.
And I dont feel safe anymore.
How is it even possible to feel safe as an American woman when the figurehead of our country is a sexual predator who objectifies, harasses, humiliates and assaults women and proceeds to dismiss his damaging behavior as locker roomtalk?
Americans have pledged their allegiancetoa man who says a woman who cant sexually satisfy her husband shouldnt be a leader. That hurts.